WHAT MY BANNER MEANS TO ME. FLAGS X3

  On my new Facebook I have a new banner up, I decided to combine three very specific flags in the banner. All of the flags are in support of LGBTQ community in different ways. It has been a very interesting journey and experience for sure, one I actually have been happy to take along each way.

 So now onto the flags I have combined I will discuss. The first one I will talk about is the Non Binary flag. As people who have read my entries I initially came out as gay. Then did a few videos and talks with friends and determined or sorry thought I determined bisexual. Then I really like really started to study everything. 

 As I did all of this for the longest time I still thought bisexual. Then I came across Non binary Gender fluid and Transgender along with Gender Querr. So how did I determine the combination. Well here we go. 

  I started reading things online written up I called a few places and discussed my feelings I had been having. I had to admit eventually that my feelings I'd been having were more what were described as non binary than everything I had been through. I had feelings really buried and was admitting it to myself and this was the easiest to admit to my friends. I wish family would accept me fully coming out. 

 Then I was reading about Gender Fluid and of course watching YouTube videos. I saw how close that it was related to Non binary both having for lack better word traits. How some people aren't torn but one day feel Gender fluid and other days they identify as Non binary. It really is a large umbrella. 

 I often have felt like the odd man out in my life. Like because of my epilepsy and heart issue I couldn't be like all my friends. Becsuse of this there were times I felt like one of the ladies in a group. So often I felt fragile and needed protection because of family, medical. First off my family were always making me walk on eggshells so to speak. Because of this for longest time when I wasn't well it wasn't the greatest time emotionally for me. 

 Some nights becsuse of this I sat in front of TV and dreamed about how interesting it would have been if I was going to be a girl. Then sometimes when on dates I wondered what would I feel like as a lady. Thinking things like having there emotions for lack of better term. 

 I often had extreme feminine thoughts going through my mind. It was like some days I wanted to be the dude the total guy. Then there were times when I thought what if my body was like my mind was the other day.  Now that I have found all these flags combine and make me it's awesome. This is Dorian Spencer signing off.

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  1. RederigAugust 1, 2021 at 6:00 AM

    When we started Gay Liberation, we marched in a march wearing everyday attire to show the public, we are already here among you all in home, work, and recreation, accept us...and now it is a shameful side show that displays open sex, loose relationships, nudity, the flag etc. It's a little more than stupid, straight people could do the same thing, and not everyone in or around their parades is gay. Do most even know why they are gay, genes, lifestyle, friends, but they can say it's a choice, think again. You are who you are, not what you do. There are a lot of people that won't say anything, because they don't want to be a part of the " gay world", and fly a flag about their sleeping habits. And you see, no religion either...

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