Newlytravels

   This is a bit of an extension of my entry from yesterday. How I found my greyside besides seeing videos and reading all about it. I have to say while reading it was very helpful and eye opening to me. I'll explain how in a bit more detail.    Yes I have been on my share of dates over my 51 years I never felt truly comfrerable with the majority except the ones. Like I really felt special things. I thought that one past GF was going to be like that because lot time we watched TV or play cards. Then one time she kissed me right away I was stunned. Then she sat down asked ne don't you ever just wanna well you know. That's when I knew it was starting to end and I really pulled away except cuddling.  Another GF wanted me wait on her hand foot but that's just not me I need a true equal. I needed somebody who wasn't a control freak. Somebody who would give me breathing room and once again not need just that 1 thing. It seemned for a while that's what I was walking in...

   I did an entry like this quite a while back. I have since taken it out and am doing a newer version of it. As I've discovered or rediscovered another part of myself. I have discovered or as I phrased rediscovered my greysexual side to myself   I have not dated as a grey for a longtime and what ive discovered wow its a much different feeling and different feelings arise as well. When I have been with others in the past especially one Paticular GF I wasn't and couldn't just be the go for it person. I had two relationships in the past where my partner was that person.   When you don't feel comfortable in a relationship like that you really have a different unusual feeling than if you had been in another relationship. You can go with kissing hugging cuddling for very long time. Then you can have the "special times" a lot less and still feel relaxed. Those special times are truly more special I believe.