Newlytravels

 Pardon: This is the first word that has come to my mind each time I discuss a new part of ny journey. Why is this word used you may ask yourself. Because of one simple word phase. Phase was does that have to do with it well when I came out couple years ago gay everyone or almost everyone was giving me attitude or telling me it was all a phase you'll be back with girls in no time. Same thing when I came out as bi and was having feelings both ways.   Now that I'm out as non binary I have a load telling me this is just your easy way to be with anyone anytime. That to me was a very mind blowing statement I couldn't believe or others saying there is no such thing. Even more remarkable.   Hindsight: Coming out as non binary has really given me lot of Hindsight into the world. It shows who can't be bothered to look past anything they have in there life or believe. Or they have to be correct no matter what the case may be.  Attitude: Truly I have gotten a closer l...

  I was always bugged especially by my father i vacation when I wanted to do the malls. Either with my mom or with my aunt. My dad has never liked malls and he dosent think shopping is a "guys" thing. Everytime I would go into Toronto with any of my friend's it could turn into a bit of a longer shopping experience than predicted.  Not only would I get my t-shirts and my jeans I needed I would stand around and try to see what I would look like in different unisex shirts close to fem style. I've known somehow for a very long time I just didn't know as I've mentioned how to break it free  I also want to do a bit of shopping to see what even a bit of gloss and polish feels like. I'm not sure why but was always something that caught my interest like a wish. Kinda like the male Darlene from Roseanne. It will be interesting if I ever bring the new name up with my family and tell them David is no longer being used. That won't go over great especially seeing ho...

 🏳️‍🌈 When I look at masculine and feminine qualities for me there isn't much if any of a difference. I see the "male gender" acting like I am used too on a daily basis. Then there are times I see the feminine gender and that as time has gone on has become more and more interesting .  I have become more and more attracted to their lifestyle and the things that they wear. I know I do feel comfortable in some female clothing as I've mentioned before from parties and different costumes I've had on. I felt very relaxed and free. So I know that I have a huge split where I'm part when I talk to friends they all can pick my gender up.  Like the newness to them it is new for me  I know it will take time to get used to but I'm very happy as the transition has really relaxed me.🏳️‍🌈

  I have been out an acted like I was either gay or bisexual for many years now. This as I've mentioned I think was done subconsciously as I was not ready to fully admit who I was and am now especially. Why do you say who I am now especially well for all those years gender wise I didn't fully understand who I was like on the gender spectrum. So I will explain this.   I didn't mind being a "guy" buy I didn't always feel comfortable within my male body the way I felt. So often I felt like I would feel great as a woman. Just as good as I did as being a guy. Over the years I would purposely act with my friend Micheal when I was in school as he is out and was out in college.    I found out a reason one of my girlfriends cheated on me and wanted to end thing's. I found out recently I acted dainty around her. I found out I acted like a "lady" in a way in high-school until now. I just totally am seeing 100% now that I've always been very closely spli...

 My other Facebook account was hacked and it sent our messages and my account was played with. So messages were sent out pictures were taken up down and other things. So I looked into other names for this account. I thought for a while and I thought about an old family friend. His name was Huey Quinn and that is where the name came from.  I've always liked the name Quinn and seen it in few stories I also remember a song the mighty Quinn. So I noticed and realized hey sometimes getting hacked turns out to be a good thing. I'm 99.9% sure this will be last name to come out of this. Bless you Huey you were awesome. 

 This is an entry that is related to a couple of other entries in the past. You will understand when I go through it what I am referring to. Like my kaleidoscope entry and flow X3 entry this has to do with colors and my journey. So let's take a walk down the multicolored road.  I will start with the Non Binary colors that I have within me. There is yellow gender without reference to binary. White refers to many or all genders. Purple a gender between mix of female and male. Black a lack of gender    Now I will move into the Asexual colors within my spectrum. In the Asexual flag the colors are first off purple. The purple represents the cumminity. The Grey in the flag that represents Asexual and demisexual area. The white represents the allies   Then the is full Asexual pretty well have zero physical attraction or low sexual drive.   . 

  This title actually came from something I had seen on television. It was from the first episode of a series called pride and it struck a cord with me. Talking about the gay culture and how so much of course needed to be hidden. People really weren't freely coming out it was really seen as awful and horid. Things today are much better, yes we still have some discrimination but nothing like past few decades.   Somebody mentioned how by day when you were around friends the guys would be guys. Then when they were in private or in a gay area it was like they were in photobooth. It was private and they could be themselves. It was there true safe space.   I really understand that because I know I've always had a feminine side. Not just a feminine side in the way of emotions but my nature daily with certain people. However at the same time me admitting it was extremely gut wrenching. However it was necessary for sure.   When I'm with friends or on phone with...

  On my new Facebook I have a new banner up, I decided to combine three very specific flags in the banner. All of the flags are in support of LGBTQ community in different ways. It has been a very interesting journey and experience for sure, one I actually have been happy to take along each way.  So now onto the flags I have combined I will discuss. The first one I will talk about is the Non Binary flag. As people who have read my entries I initially came out as gay. Then did a few videos and talks with friends and determined or sorry thought I determined bisexual. Then I really like really started to study everything.   As I did all of this for the longest time I still thought bisexual. Then I came across Non binary Gender fluid and Transgender along with Gender Querr. So how did I determine the combination. Well here we go.    I started reading things online written up I called a few places and discussed my feelings I had been having. I had to admit eventu...

  Remember the Russian dolls I think they were Russian anyway. Started with one bigger person and inside was a smaller version of the doll, until eventually you got to the smallest version. That's what coming out has been like the Russian doll is the perfect metaphor. Here is why I say it is the perfect metaphor to use.  When I first began this journey I came out as 100% gay, 55% because I actually truly thought I was and 45% was because I didn't figure on my family well not parents anyway understanding me coming out as bi or anything else. Then I had a few conversations one in a bar after my poker game two were on phone with different people. They all figured and said basically the same thing, I probably wasn't "gay" but more likely bisexual. I thought that was end and it felt like it for a while.  Another doll appeared and this one actually had felt like a complete me at least for a short time. Demisexual Bisexual this was actually starting to feel like me, plus...

  Once again I'm doing a continuation style entry for my blog. Just before I go on I have to say I know it seems like I've done alot of them. However they have really helped anxiety my mind and are very cathartic at times for me. Of course I find all writing is.  So this a continuation by talking a bit more where I feel comfortable differently identity wise so to speak. Like I'm most comfortable as a guy around all my poker buddies on Tuesday nights for sure. Most of them on Thursday except a select few. Then I feel my fem side really emerge. Like when I would talk to my friends Sheila Eileen or Wendy. I sometimes feel like I need to bring my fem side out on phone.  Now that happens rarely it mostly happens with lyns and very rarely it might hit me with others. My fem side hits with lyns mostly because of the way she talks. It can be like talking to my dad at times. It used to be like this with somebody else but seems to be leveling eventhough at times I still feel more t...

 It's amazing how at times not all of time mind you I was so jealous of the girls I dated. I would be in the room watching them put a bit of lip gloss on or asking me what dress I liked better. When I was asked 70% of time somewhere in back of mind I thought I know what one I'd feel most comfortable in. Or I enjoyed looking at other clothes with my girlfriends and I enjoyed as much as they did. When I saw all the jewelery some were able to wear.  I at this time I figured out wasn't "fully transgender" Like at times I dream of what fully I would be like as a woman.  Like I'd say in the emotional way I'm split fairly close Like a 60/40 guy feminine ratio. I love all of everything comes out all of the time. I have always hidden my fem side but since coming out I've felt more comfy as a fem side.   I could go out have a beer with all the guys be guy cool. Or do a day or even two of shopping with friends, help females pick clothing out check out lingerie ma...

  This entry is going to tie in to the one I did last night. It will sort of untangle things a bit more, or give more more of a chance to articulate some things. Much of this sort of came to me while resting last night. Also after having a conversation that helped for sure.  As people know ftom a few of the entries my initial coming out was as gay, then came out as bisexual and started to read lots of stuff and realized there was something else and that was demisexual. That's many colors for sure. However I had another one I'm fully ready to admit. Something I never thought would come out or I'd even think about. But once again with all the research hard research I realized had part trans in me those are the final colors in my kaleidoscope.  So why do I say I am also I'm the area of Trans? Well so often I've liked to be the one treated in the dainty way. I always think to myself when I'm with my friends ah look how relaxed I am chilling with my girlfriends, like...

 I've always been a sensitive person or at least I have always considered myself to be sensitive. Sometimes my sensitive side is over the top. Well at least that's how many guys see it. I have been described as very limp or even dainty. Many friend's have 50/50 jokingly compared me to being the girl in my relationship's. I'm not going to deny it very often I've felt like I wanted that spot. I always liked it when the girl let me take her spot when together so to speak.  I've always felt I could also be the "guy" in the relationship the one who would lead and take charge. Make decisions or at least be the one who approaches decisions first. That also was a good feeling. Brought my confidence level back up at times.  I also very often on the inside and thought about my body heart and soul feel like it's time to turn into to old school weaker one in the relationship. I don't find it hard or as hard as you might think. As I saw one key thing th...