Newlytravels

  🏳️‍🌈 This entry is actually going to sound very familiar and be very close to another entry. I'm actually going to start off with discussing about the Transgender side so to speak. I thought I would start with this as many people have thought I had thoughts or if I thought I might be Trans and not just Gay or Bi. It was never actually something I had thought about until I remembered how in was horribly teased about  what a little girl I was or "am".   It was and always has both been a soar spot. But one that has had me really look into myself internally. As I mentioned in my other entry I wouldn't become a woman buy sometimes internally I do feel free that way. So that was the part of me that associated with Transgender.  Now my Bisexual side that one is a more obvious one and people had always seen it. They had actually even seen it before I did. I was more blindsided than everyone else was. Even when people would ask me if I was gay or mostly say bisexual ...

 🏳️‍🌈 So this title is very interesting in a few different ways for sure. First off as people who have been following all three my journeys my life battles and struggles with both epilepsy and CHD. Then my recent journey that I must say wasn't as recent as I would actually say. It was just a hidden journey until recently.                                           For everybody who knows me they until very recently have known me as David or Bezer as it was a poker nickname becsuse of 4 David's at one point. I had/have what you would refer to as the most unique last name and that is how that started. Wasn't a disrespect thing and I never saw it as one more of a nickname to separate.   Now that I have been slowly moving forward in my journey after fully coming out, and discovering or rather shall we say admitting things I was both forced to bury over the year's. Th...

  Today I went for normal Monday workout, they are getting better by the way. Plus more and more people are showing up looking like the gym again. So that is an excellent thing for sure.   I met two people who identify as both he/,him they/them and are a couple. One of them asked me if I was gay or bisexual. I told them actually I identify as bisexual and non binary. One asked me during the workout how I first started to "identify " as non binary. So we had a discussion.  I told them I was pretty sure I had known something for many many years but didn't know what to call it exactly. They were were wondering what I meant so I explained as best as I could while working out with them. One said that was exactly their feeling until they started dating heavy. I asked what they meant about heavy? The description was like real real serious GFS and many I always dreamed, like not at night but would look at GFs and think I would feel comfortable I wonder how I would look. I sa...

 🏳️‍🌈I wrestled with this for a while. I was deciding on what blog to put it in, After tossing back and forth I decided that it belonged here. Well actually it could have gone into either but I felt more of it hit home about my "new true" identity and coming out. Rather than just the seizure free run.  So I decided to drop in here becsuse of answering and hearing either They/Them or the name that I am now known as, except my family of course, Quinn.   Becsuse Quinn and not having to say I am a male or female to people it has cut down on my seizures. Even my smaller ones that hit I seem to recover from faster.  Being Quinn has really changed the way I am living the limited life I can, I say limited because of covid not because I have nothing to do. One place it really feels amazing is at poker I love hearing it everytime I get assigned my seat. Then everytime I see it on messenger it's the best.  So I know seizures will still come of course but lately they...

🏳️‍🌈  Something I didn't realize or probably realized but didn't see it as clearly as I do today was my entire self. Part of this is because of Chrys and part of it because a very good friend of mine Jennifer. It was a very interesting thing that came around.  I like my friend Chrys used a fem voice I used it more often and even did it when I was dating. I would use a very fem voice at time's and at first I thought it was just me being funny and playing around. Seeing what different things were like.  The more I did it the more I felt a "strange new comfort". I felt I could have an internal and external fem side, plus my masculine side. It was great seeing Chrys and a former friend be able to do this. Was also nice too see my friends accept this side of me. Very relaxing for sure.🏳️‍🌈💛🤍💜🖤

 🏳️‍🌈 This entry actually ties into a couple of entries I have done in the past. I felt that it deserved or "needed" a bit more exploring on my part. As I have stated in the past and all my family and friend's know I wrestled with so much while coming out. It really has been a truly long journey one I am still on and I know will never end. That is actually something that makes me extremely happy. New experience's daily is something to look forward to.   Having a triangle of experience's so too speak is making my "Newer" found identity  Living as Bisexual Non Binary and Genderfluid has really helped me in two separate ways.  I have never more of a free person never felt more like my true self.   The second way is all the people I have met online, and walked me through everything. Well not walked me through everything but explained different parts I didn't fully understand. Then after all of this it was interesting to see how much it was me being tuc...

 🏳️‍🌈  So exactly what do I mean by this title? It's quite simple actually now after last night all of my poker friend's have seen and begun to use Quinn instead of David or my last name. Eventhough I kept my last name the same, so it didn't become a dead name for me.   I have rarely been using my selected pronouns only a couple of people have used them actually. So during more and more conversations I am going to try and have people mix my name with my pronouns. It's something I want to slide into so to speak.  I would imagine this will happen most when I am poker and when I can start going downtown again. Ad these are the biggest hang out numbers for me, except if camp is in person. Then of course would ask there as well. So over the next little while we will see how things go. 🏳️‍🌈🖤💜🤍