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  Today I was the most relaxed since I officially came out. Now when I say officially came out because I told different people at different times to start. I considered myself officially out when I told my family and they all knew. Although as I've said I think they had an idea before but when I came out it was like a stun gun. I guess can't blame them all that much.  So today I took my first set of fem shots for my non binary album. I actually felt very empowered is the best word I can think of. I was letting my other side out. Something I've only done a couple of times and usually in a Halloween costume. I had to say I was very relaxed taking the pictures.  I will admit I was a bit hesitant to take the pics, after the first one I was relaxed taking the other two. So tonight I'm going to try with three or four more. A different scarf and shirt. See how relaxed second fem set of pics comes out. 

  I'm tying this entry back in with my ages entries and how it all sort of knots itself up. As I have mentioned my mother and my sister, like my whole mother's side of family are very religious. So I was so nervous through school years and until I saw how mom was with other gay bi people to come out. For a while I actually was afraid of going to hell for being gay. Plus I felt trapped at home because I knew I wasn't gay but was most I could admit even until now.   I knew I was more I knew how comfortable I was in makeup and even little items of feminine clothing. Such as hats scarves that were unisex. Iiked getting pics taken both in my masculine and my feminine. This happened a few times and it helped my spirit be much more free. Even when I just acted feminine without realizing I think it made me relaxed then I would simply flip back to masculine .   It was like a relief and almost like I broke or almost broke the Stockholm syndrome. The more people close to m...

  🏳️‍🌈I want to throw out a huge thank you to a group of people Aubyn Riley, Jennifer Cannon and Eileen Murray. You all have taken a great approach through all my coming out. Now especially when I have come out as non binary also when I have had a shirt puzzlingly go missing s couple of times. That definitely was a very interesting and strange thing.   So it appeared that Greg my brother in law wasn't a fan of me becoming Quinn and becoming non binary. Like many people he sees me as flip flopping for no actual reason. Of course I know he didn't like the name because it is on Facebook. There is an option where you can change name after 60 days. I was chatting with Eileen last night and she reminded me how much fighting I've done how far I've come. So have Jenn and Aubyn I've felt so good with there support.  So thank you Eileen for the swift kick. On Facebook from this day forward Quinn it is even if my family won't acknowledge the name all or close to all will...

  I wasn't sure where to put this entry, originally I was going to post in my epilepsy blog. Actually normally I would post an entry like this there especially after getting inspiration from one of the epilepsy advocates, Tiffany Kairos. The reason I would normally have put in epilepsy because of Tiffany herself and the words that inspired the entry.  So here are the words that inspired this entry. Brave, Courageous, Ressillent. The reason I decided to put in this entry in the end was from what people had been telling me since I came out. I will actually start with ressillent. So many people have compared my "not coming out" for so long with my epilepsy. They all told me how much strength I had when I was holding in my secret the same way I am able to talk about my seizures so much.  Courages I have always thought everyone else who came out that I know was full of courage. Especially when they were able to tell family friends. For the longest time I obviously didn't f...

   Now don't get me wrong I have never truly minded getting my photo taken. As a matter of fact many people have told me how photogenic I am and how good I really come out. I have always loved group or at least couple shots when getting a photo done, I find it adds more color to the picture more bang and life to the picture that is being taken. Why do I like my picture being taken? The biggest reason is it shows your inside and life your aura, the thing I like to read.   I have really enjoyed doing all of my selfie shots as Quinn. I have brought out Quinn the person I was meant to be. I really have felt so free it is a light feeling ever since I became Quinn. However lots of people have said to my (David) you didn't become Quinn, Quinn has been buried in you for all these years and they are coming out now in freedom. It is up to everyone else to accept you as Quinn don't bend because you feel you need to.  I had become close to bending and scrapping Quinn and even my...

  In this entry I'll be doing a double list in a way. The first part is the people who have no issues and are willing to use my new name. Then the people who absolutely refuse to use my new name and will only call me by as I've seen written my "deadname".   So I'm actually going to start out on the toxic side of things. The people who absolutely refuse to use the name I am going by now. I think I will start with my brother in law as he was the one who shocked me the most because he always been in my corner with my coming out. Not like everyone else in the family.   Now I know my sister never will accept a different name. So how do I know this seeing I haven't had contact yet since "Quinn" was born. Oh that is very easy. If she takes my mother's side to make my mother happy over a bracelet then she definitely would take mother's side on a name issue.   My dad a miracle would have to happen for him to be ok with name change. He sees people like...

  Tonight was a shocker well in a way anyway. I sort of expected what happened to happen. I just wasn't expecting it so soon or from where it came from. Tonight I officially changed my name on Facebook and this didn't go over well with my brother in law. In the past he has been the cool one with all my coming out stuff and all Tonight it was a total 180. He typed to me do I have to call you Quinn not wanting to start an argument online I said no, bad idea.   I realized after I should have stood up for all my principals. Not that it was going to matter. As he quickly responded good because I wasn't going to call you Quinn. No I will see no asking where it came from just a cold dead no. The bad thing is I know eventually there will be backlash from rest of adult family. If you have seen my pictures as Quinn Jaxon on my Facebook page you can see my free spirit and energy coming. I don't need that killed fingers crossed nothing else happens. 

 Earlier today I had been thinking about taking my David Bezer name down ftom Facebook. After I did that I was going to replace with Quinn Bezer my new name I am using with all my friends. As I mentioned I had been thinking for a while.   A few things made me decide make my name Quinn on Facebook. One thing was one some of my best friend's loves the name and I really like that. Another thing that helped me was what one heart camp friend's said. Told me her son really liked the name. As a matter of fact I had many people say it was an amazing name and suits me.   The hard decision was knowing eventually as I mentioned before I probably will hear about it. Also I had lived as David for so many years. However now I feel more free than I can ever remember, yes David is a wonderful name I admit. However for as long as I can remember I hadn't fully felt like a boy, also hadn't felt like a girl. So I played around with the name Quinn and I feel like a huge group of peo...

  Right with being out as non binary the people who know are my Facebook friends and my friends I would be seeing in person if I could. As of this moment my family and friends of the family haven't seen or heard my new name. I'm still simply David, it isn't sitting fully well with me as I have been through lots with my coming out and associating with the LGBTQ community more than most friends know and definitely more than any family truly knows. I am really enjoying seeing things typed to me like They/Them and my new name what I feel is my true name Quinn.  So I am thinking about taking David Bezer down from Facebook page and becoming Quinn Jaxon. I know this may no not may will cause backlash but I feel Quinn really is me and if you see my Quinn album.youll see how I feel. Only way I wouldn't become Quinn through bank Dr other official but thinking making 1000% official on Facebook, for lack better term being born and fully coming our as Quinn.

 🏳️‍🌈 This is a scrap blog/redo and it will become clear as I go along. A long while ago I wrote about nailing down my age of "knowing when I was gay bisexual". I thought it had been in my 20s from everything that I remembered, after a conversation with somebody I hadn't heard from in quite a while it was much before that. It was actually during my time I'm high-school. It actually did make sense to me as we were talking.  I remember really having crushes on lots of the girls in high school and even wanting to date them. Not only did I want to date but I became very good friends with lots of them and all the guys took note. I was never teased as a matter of fact I was always still welcome with everything they did.   One thing my friend and I talked about and that was why so many saw me as either gay or bi in high school was at gym time sometimes outside I'd get flushed. They could  see my feelings and as my friend had said how I was hiding but I didn't know ...

  This entry actually comes from a conversation thread that many people applied to and started taking about. Somebody had started the thread by asking what age did you know you were NB. the ages were a range from 13 to 56. I thought I was extremely late coming out non binary at 48 but then I think I knew well before I was actually non binary.  I had a really good idea around my 25th year, this was after I had been thinking about my sexuality through high school and after my first go around of college. That was when I went to George brown. After George brown I was convinced that I had everything straightened out. Or at least for the most part.   I was sure for a while everything was "fine" according to my family. I needed to keep them and even myself in the dark. It had been a stressful time for sure.  I went through so many different things as I've written about with LGBTQ and it has been revealing for sure. Here is a small picture of it.   As everyone...

  I have to give credit to a new person met on line Dara for the title and the bulk going in. However it is something that I always had thought of. So the bulk is a combination. A refresh from Dara and things that were in back of mind even when I was in high school and especially my time at Durham College . The thoughts of for lack of better term how society as a norm sees everything.   We view everything in a medical way of course we were taught that way. Like with certain parts we are either male or female. Why is that a rule? Where is getting outside of the box? Just like a specific way of dressing and stiff you wear on yout face is what tries to determine male and female. We have never seen outside of the box although more and more the box is being opened more.   Some ways the box is being opened up more is you see "non trans" guys in makeup or nail polish. You see more acting in a more dainty way  and not being afraid of it the way people used to be....