KNOWING HKW TO BREAK FREE

  I was always bugged especially by my father i vacation when I wanted to do the malls. Either with my mom or with my aunt. My dad has never liked malls and he dosent think shopping is a "guys" thing. Everytime I would go into Toronto with any of my friend's it could turn into a bit of a longer shopping experience than predicted.

 Not only would I get my t-shirts and my jeans I needed I would stand around and try to see what I would look like in different unisex shirts close to fem style. I've known somehow for a very long time I just didn't know as I've mentioned how to break it free

 I also want to do a bit of shopping to see what even a bit of gloss and polish feels like. I'm not sure why but was always something that caught my interest like a wish. Kinda like the male Darlene from Roseanne.

It will be interesting if I ever bring the new name up with my family and tell them David is no longer being used. That won't go over great especially seeing how actually coming out hit like ton of bricks.

 However when you feel comfortable within yourself it's the best thing to do. And fully admitting I have the larger Fem side and not being afraid to chat with my friends about it is awesome. It shows truly who stands by you and who only claims to. 

 There are a couple of exceptions I've made but other than that I will see who really is there. So far it has been about who I thought and I'm very happy. I know this may sound odd but I'm not afraid to be my fem side when everything is settled anymore. I used to bury it eventhough I do know some saw it come out.

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