FEELINGS THAT I DIDN'T WANT TO ADMIT.

 I've always been a sensitive person or at least I have always considered myself to be sensitive. Sometimes my sensitive side is over the top. Well at least that's how many guys see it. I have been described as very limp or even dainty. Many friend's have 50/50 jokingly compared me to being the girl in my relationship's. I'm not going to deny it very often I've felt like I wanted that spot. I always liked it when the girl let me take her spot when together so to speak.

 I've always felt I could also be the "guy" in the relationship the one who would lead and take charge. Make decisions or at least be the one who approaches decisions first. That also was a good feeling. Brought my confidence level back up at times.

 I also very often on the inside and thought about my body heart and soul feel like it's time to turn into to old school weaker one in the relationship. I don't find it hard or as hard as you might think. As I saw one key thing that so many have told me I can be dainty at times. It was something I enjoyed but tried to keep hidden. Except with one person but that wasn't difficult for me. I think the rest of my relationships saw my dainty side anyway. 

 Part of me didn't feel fully pure and true, like when I described myself dainty I often thought about myself fully on the other spectrum. I still do it all as mentioned depends who I'm with and where I am. Each day I'm more and more confident admiting my true self to more and more.

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