A TOTALLY REFRESHED LOOK

 I did a kill off my last blog. Not on purpose however it actually was due to seizure. So  everything was getting messed up and things were getting totally out of order. It has been a crazy year for everyone and it had caused my writing although to be decent to go off the rails at time's. So I'm starting this with a New Years resolution hoping it will stay on course.

 Now I'm going to try keep thing more in order. Not jumping in and out all over place. I kind of had things going around in a big circle last time.

 The first thing I'm going to do to stay on a fresh course is say thank you to everyone who over my process of coming out helped me. I'm not going to mention everyone here. That will come later as it did before. 

 So in this entry I am going to give one specific thank you, that thank you is for Andrew because if I hadn't met him my life would still be in denial and I actually wouldn't be a spiritual person. When I met him I had given up on God and the concept of anything like God. It was a rough number of years for sure.

 A number of years later he told me that God had told him it was ok to be gay or bisexual. This was something I could never grasp as I have a huge huge catholic family and always went to catholic school.

 I still wasn't sure if it was true until I started to feel my emotions and how real the LGBTQ community was. So spiritually I started to search and in 2019 I was finally told it was ok to be me. I know I stunned many then many I didn't. I even deeply hurt one person for that I will have to live with and am truly sorry.🏳️‍🌈💛🤍💜🖤

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