A POCKET OF FRIENDS

   In 2009 I started attending durham college and that went until 2011. I met a ton of awesome people and some I have kept in touch with some drifted apart. One I even became online friends with two of his friends. In this pocket were specific people who were having me look deep into myself. 

 The first one of these friends was named Michael a very cool guy for sure. He enjoyed his college experience and enjoyed his daily life. I remember sometimes he wasn't included but it didn't bother him. It didn't bother him because he had lots of people who liked him.

 I was one person who at first wasn't sure about him. Then over time I saw what a really nice guy he was. He as a matter of fact stirred up feelings I hadn't had for long time. Once again I buried them but I knew there was no harm in talking. 

  I must say I am glad we are still friends today. As he has told me about his experiences. Also I've seen how free and brave he is in life. For me that is awesome.

 The next person is my friend is Chrys who in his own way helped me slowly start see what was going on. It was a very interesting meeting for sure a very fortuitous meeting for me. First off he is friends with everybody in the world. Well ok that's a bit of a stretch but I've never seen him be mean to anybody and is always very helpful.

 He is like a safety net in a way. I know a very odd anology but its very true. No matter what he is a great confident and I think when I met him he knew my buried feelings. How did he know simple one thing everyone has said well not everybody but a fair number. Telling me I had feminine qualities. 

 Finally two friends of Chrys  Blake and Fraser two cool people who I had lots of great conversations all online with. It would have been cool to meet them. Most of them were humorous very funny both were very outgoing. I did lose touch with them .

 During this covid time I am glad I have seen there tweets and kept in touch a bit. Especially seeing that if two people with such close relationships with God can have this life. Then my spiritual life can and feel relaxed, relaxed and true to me. 

Thanks to this circle.

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