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PHASE

 Pardon: This is the first word that has come to my mind each time I discuss a new part of ny journey. Why is this word used you may ask yourself. Because of one simple word phase. Phase was does that have to do with it well when I came out couple years ago gay everyone or almost everyone was giving me attitude or telling me it was all a phase you'll be back with girls in no time. Same thing when I came out as bi and was having feelings both ways.   Now that I'm out as non binary I have a load telling me this is just your easy way to be with anyone anytime. That to me was a very mind blowing statement I couldn't believe or others saying there is no such thing. Even more remarkable.   Hindsight: Coming out as non binary has really given me lot of Hindsight into the world. It shows who can't be bothered to look past anything they have in there life or believe. Or they have to be correct no matter what the case may be.  Attitude: Truly I have gotten a closer l...

KNOWING HKW TO BREAK FREE

  I was always bugged especially by my father i vacation when I wanted to do the malls. Either with my mom or with my aunt. My dad has never liked malls and he dosent think shopping is a "guys" thing. Everytime I would go into Toronto with any of my friend's it could turn into a bit of a longer shopping experience than predicted.  Not only would I get my t-shirts and my jeans I needed I would stand around and try to see what I would look like in different unisex shirts close to fem style. I've known somehow for a very long time I just didn't know as I've mentioned how to break it free  I also want to do a bit of shopping to see what even a bit of gloss and polish feels like. I'm not sure why but was always something that caught my interest like a wish. Kinda like the male Darlene from Roseanne. It will be interesting if I ever bring the new name up with my family and tell them David is no longer being used. That won't go over great especially seeing ho...

MASCULINE AND FEMININE.

 🏳️‍🌈 When I look at masculine and feminine qualities for me there isn't much if any of a difference. I see the "male gender" acting like I am used too on a daily basis. Then there are times I see the feminine gender and that as time has gone on has become more and more interesting .  I have become more and more attracted to their lifestyle and the things that they wear. I know I do feel comfortable in some female clothing as I've mentioned before from parties and different costumes I've had on. I felt very relaxed and free. So I know that I have a huge split where I'm part when I talk to friends they all can pick my gender up.  Like the newness to them it is new for me  I know it will take time to get used to but I'm very happy as the transition has really relaxed me.🏳️‍🌈

LAST BUTTON PUSHED DUE TO A TSHIRT. OFFICIALLY BEING ME OUTSIDE THE HOUSE AND AT HOME

  I have been out an acted like I was either gay or bisexual for many years now. This as I've mentioned I think was done subconsciously as I was not ready to fully admit who I was and am now especially. Why do you say who I am now especially well for all those years gender wise I didn't fully understand who I was like on the gender spectrum. So I will explain this.   I didn't mind being a "guy" buy I didn't always feel comfortable within my male body the way I felt. So often I felt like I would feel great as a woman. Just as good as I did as being a guy. Over the years I would purposely act with my friend Micheal when I was in school as he is out and was out in college.    I found out a reason one of my girlfriends cheated on me and wanted to end thing's. I found out recently I acted dainty around her. I found out I acted like a "lady" in a way in high-school until now. I just totally am seeing 100% now that I've always been very closely spli...

GETTING HACKED LETTING ME DO A TRIBUTE

 My other Facebook account was hacked and it sent our messages and my account was played with. So messages were sent out pictures were taken up down and other things. So I looked into other names for this account. I thought for a while and I thought about an old family friend. His name was Huey Quinn and that is where the name came from.  I've always liked the name Quinn and seen it in few stories I also remember a song the mighty Quinn. So I noticed and realized hey sometimes getting hacked turns out to be a good thing. I'm 99.9% sure this will be last name to come out of this. Bless you Huey you were awesome. 

FINDING MORE COLORS

 This is an entry that is related to a couple of other entries in the past. You will understand when I go through it what I am referring to. Like my kaleidoscope entry and flow X3 entry this has to do with colors and my journey. So let's take a walk down the multicolored road.  I will start with the Non Binary colors that I have within me. There is yellow gender without reference to binary. White refers to many or all genders. Purple a gender between mix of female and male. Black a lack of gender    Now I will move into the Asexual colors within my spectrum. In the Asexual flag the colors are first off purple. The purple represents the cumminity. The Grey in the flag that represents Asexual and demisexual area. The white represents the allies   Then the is full Asexual pretty well have zero physical attraction or low sexual drive.   . 

IN THE PHOTOBOOTH AND OUTSIDE

  This title actually came from something I had seen on television. It was from the first episode of a series called pride and it struck a cord with me. Talking about the gay culture and how so much of course needed to be hidden. People really weren't freely coming out it was really seen as awful and horid. Things today are much better, yes we still have some discrimination but nothing like past few decades.   Somebody mentioned how by day when you were around friends the guys would be guys. Then when they were in private or in a gay area it was like they were in photobooth. It was private and they could be themselves. It was there true safe space.   I really understand that because I know I've always had a feminine side. Not just a feminine side in the way of emotions but my nature daily with certain people. However at the same time me admitting it was extremely gut wrenching. However it was necessary for sure.   When I'm with friends or on phone with...