MY DYSPHORIA

 This entry ties into another I did, that was actually just two before this I've been feeling a ton of major dysphoria lately.   I've been feeling it in two aspects in particular. Socially and physically have been my biggest one's. Even if I wanted to fully transition I know I couldn't because of cost that would face me. Also my living situation and being at home with my mother and father.

 About my dysphoria it actually really hit back in my early high school days. It was when I saw all the pretty girls what they were doing and thier outfits they would wear. I even liked the uniform because was a kilt, but Friday's and special days I really liked because they were non uniform days. So everyone could dress casual, when I saw those outfits I got a different feeling thinking I'd look fabulous in that I  should be in those outfits. 

 I repressed all the issues because of parents other family and certain friends. Now we'll over last few years they really started to come to the surface again. Especially when I see the nice sexy stuff my GF has and everything I have bought to wear around her or when we go out. It makes me feel more complete than I do most days at home or when I'm around people who still have issues my "true self identity" 

 A nice non binary Transgender person who still is on a path. A path they are loving and feeling more complete. 

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  1. AnonymousSeptember 12, 2023 at 10:04 AM

    Very well said , my friend …Hope some day soon
    All will work out for you..❤️

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