OBSTACLES GETTING IN WAY OF FULLY TRANSITIONING

 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ I wrote an extremely similar blog way back in April of this year. However over the past month or bit more I'd say I had to revisit it. It wasn't an easy revisit especially after losing one of my support people but I have gained and still have everyone else supporting me and its incredible. 

 The entry I am talking about is using pronouns other than they/them or thier. Over the last month or bit more I've been feeling more and more in touch with my fem side. I know what everyone is thinking yes we all have the feelings of masculinity and feminine no matter what assinged sex we are. However lately it has been a little different for me. So I'll explain that part of everything now.

 In the beginning of my coming out as non binary it was perfect I knew I could release what had been hidden for so long. Then I started seeing woman on dates or while I was out and wanting to be more like the lady in every way. Some of the areas were mannerisms, body style type, clothing as all my friends know. The biggest one was wanting to be the lady in the relationship but I knew that was never going to happen. 

 So you probably have figured out my other pronoun besides they/them pronouns I am going to try on she/Her as often as I can.

 Some of you may be wondering why I am trying the other pronouns. Simply I need to see how they feel on all levels. What I mean by all levels would be for one social media. The second would be talking on phone. Of course the third conversations in public.

  The reason  I would try over phone and social media with the new pronouns is because I as you know who have read my posts know I am unable to wear fem clothing or even be called Quinn at home. Not eve  if a friend comes over unless we are watching t.v. or outside having a coffee alone.

 I have really started to for lack to embrace a feminine side as well as my masculine side. I used to think that my friends and my ex friends who were allies to me said I was dainty I am beging to understand it all. Especially after talking to people who have had my feelings and watching videos. Videos have been a huge help for my discovery and journey, especially over last I'd say 3 months.

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