ANOTHER LOCATED TRIGGER

   I recently have been examining everything and have been trying to see if I had any new triggers for seizures. Was working out if was just the same old things or new. I actually did find a new trigger for my seizures. It's hearing my dead name of David.

 Perhaps I should clarify one point before I go on. I don't mean if I randomly hear the name David no its when I am called David, and I have to correct and say my name is Quinn. Or if a person says no I won't use it that's not you, not gonna happen. 

  They anxiety kicks up and I many times have a seizure, not major huge but still seizures. I think to myself "why should I bend for you?" It's like my feelings aren't taken into consideration. I didn't do this just for fun and everything as some seem to think I did. 

  No this has been a life long journey for sure. As I have mentioned I knew of course I had different feelings when I was younger, however I'm not sure if I've said this but I felt like I had been programmed both by society and especially by my family to be AMAB. For those who don't know that is assigned male at birth. 

  Then with the more people I knew I slowly started to realize I could be more someone else. For a while I tried coming out to 2 people when I was leaving high-school. Then my second time in college I didn't say anything but I know people suspected. 

 Then after my graduation I knew but because of the "programing" I still couldn't come out. I was finally able to come out however I had feelings I didn't know the exact wording for besides saying gay to family. But I know they knew.

 The thing they didn't know about and not sure they are fully "acknowledging it" my non binary side, and truly I need all sides of me acknowledged I don't feel it's to much to ask.🏳️‍🌈

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