PRIDE

  🏳️‍🌈 Promise: This word definitely applies to me when it comes to the word pride. Many years ago even before I started coming out to everyone I had made a double sided inner Promise to myself. Either I was going to come out to everyone or I was going toivr my life as a bisexual. However not using the actual term I'll explain

 I was going to live my life as hey your attractive weather it was a guy or girl. I know basically the exact same thing I and most people feel comfortable with "labels" so after coming out gay I came out not long after bisexual. As most I know are comfortable with label. I have to admit I feel free and comfortable with saying it.

 Reason: So why Reason ok here is a very simple explanation. I've had over the years before coming out, woman say to me how handsome I was/am. It was very flattering won't deny. So I would have them ask me why on earth I would come out. There were a few I asked why are you still straight. It was like when I first told my parents he ssid very I mean very straight faced you do know everything this means right.

 Introspection: I'm choosing this word because of my mind. I will explain when I finally decided to come out and I mean really come out tell everyone even talk to more LGBTQ people in the open it took do much stress away from me I mean wow was I ever sleeping better, seizures were cutting

 . I was upset emotionally as I thought I had devastated my family, for a bit didn't know who was going to accept me who wasn't. And I was hurt inside because of special person. One of the things helped me start to heal people I chatted with and assured me I wasn't anyone different. 

 Destiny: This one might have been a strange word at first but I will explain it. When I came out I was told by another friend my best friend in high-school had thought I was gay. He also told me that there were a group of other people who had a deep belief feing I was at least bisexual. Of course even back then you didn't "out somebody". So they didn't approach me. Also in high-school I knew about a few gay students both guys and girls. I found myself attracted still to both sides and a few of these people I was still in an exploration stage.

 The more time went on like even after school I was apparently giving out signs. Then I met with others who instantly suspected but of course once again couldn't say anything directly to anyone. Like I knew that certain people frirnds picked up stuff from me, like my friend Judy I had a feing she knew but couldn't say anything. As she said wasn't her place. I totally understood that for sure. I was very surprised when I found out my friend from camp Aubyn thought it but like Judy she wanted to wait until I was fully ready once again so respected that.  All this tied into my Destiny 

 Evolved: Over the past few years my life certainly has been an amazing evolution. It has taken turns I both expected but at the same time didn't expect at all. I have to say things really do happen in life in a whirlwind at times you don't expect. I am so happy I have found where I am in life now.

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