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 I know it has been a while since entered in both blogs but life has been crazy. Of course there was the passing of my dad and I took a few months away from writing just to have so me regroup time for myself. I know six months sounds like lot to take away from writing but had to get everything all settled.   Now I have found out I will be moving out of house and in with sister in the near future so this has been leading to some downsizing especially in my movie and TV area. Another place it has led to downsizing is with pride. I was working on my room with my mom I was tackling my closet for certain clothes so she did my drawers to empty space.    I had already been having seizures so before mom got to my bottom drawer I had to toss my pride flags. It was better than why these here and eye roll thing. So while out of room I got in and did it. Even my bracelets are gone fortunately might be getting new ones soon. 

🏳️‍🌈I was inspired to do this entry from a YouTube couple. Jackie and Anya, they have a channel wives vs world. Actually they really have helped me more and more along with another Transgender warrior Ashley Adamson.  I present as masculine most of the time as I have mentioned before however for the longest time I have felt like I was a girl, both internally and externally. Even though I have to present more masculine because of situations of living and not being able do surgery or take hormones because of lots of other meds i am on.   I view my "newer life" as Quinn I have my sexuality and who I love, and I love my wonderful girlfriend Jennifer. My Gender identity to me I am Transgender female something that is giving me great joy to be able to say to so many. Then I have my gender expression and I express myself feminine as much as I can. But in certain areas still a bit more masculine. However I really feel like I have freed my feminine side. Something I've been want...

 🏳️‍⚧️ When I was in the "initial stages" of coming out as Transgender there are many things I remember. One is trying on my mother's scarves and feeling so amazing and different. Then I started to try on unisex but very feminine things in store I had a different feeling than if it was the masculine unisex clothing. Then I started seeing girls woman and thinking to myself I would look great in that. At this point I thought to myself am I just a cross dresser  . I bought a few outfits for myself and it gave me a different feeling a unique feeling. Not just a feeling of oh I feel amazing which I did but a feeling of I can feel the true me coming out. My egg breaking so to speak..My breakout outfit was a yellow blouse that I first wore with jeans and it was yes at the time Quinn you are and always have been a woman.  I always knew but had a hard time bringing her out. She really is out now fully. Well fully in regard to those accepting. That is why I have become Davina and ...

  Transforming: Buried deep down all my life I had been waiting for my big chance. My chance to transform. It was difficult as I had many road blocks and there are still a few. However being out now as a transgender woman has helped me realize that even with the things blocking me I should have come out much sooner as I am feeling so great ever since I admitted it to myself and others.    Radiance: Ever since coming out as Transgender like fully "Transgender". Not non binary and Transgender combined people have been using a certain word to describe me. That is either Radiance or odd time Radiant. Refering to when they see me in pictures I have been taken in. I've been told that I've never looked so happy. In this area I owe so much to my wonderful partner Jennifer for all there help. Especially with outfits and when we are out.   Astounding: Coming out as Transgender has also made me feel astounding. It's like I'm living a whole new life, well I am except for ...

     🏳️‍⚧️I did something similar to this entry a couple of years ago, with everything that has gone in mostly excellent I thought it was time to revisit. So yea this is going to look like another part another update on this long journey I have been on. Yes much of it has been wonderful but there have also been rough patches like any journey a person takes. So let's examine the different areas.   First off as everyone know way back when even before I initially came out I had feelings I felt I couldn't admit. Then when people kept asking me if I was gay it went to back of mind. I finally was able to come out and a weight was lifted. But there was something still not sitting perfect I noticed this at poker and when I went DT with partner. So I then came out as bi as it was a better "label" however that's all it was, was a label.  Then I came out non binary abd people started to say your just using different labels so don't have to narrow down. I was especial...

  🏳️‍⚧️So I am now on my third name and this name has brought so much joy and euphoria everytime I've heard it and seen it typed. Yes Quinn brought me joy and they in some way will always be a part of me. However this name is different and makes me feel complete and amazing.   So what is the name it's a form of my birthname. The name is Davina and it has done so much for me. Even though been a very short time using it each time I have seen it or read it, it has fit like a glove like that's the name that always should been there along with being feminine and not masculine. However this is something that I've known and all my partners told me while together. That the roles seemed reversed. I know they weren't trying to be mean now just observation and something I didn't want to fully accept.   I say fully accept because as I had mentioned before other places I had felt more feminine like I should been one of the girls. One place was in highschool when I both love...

 🏳️‍⚧️ Yesterday marked the third anniversary of me coming out as non binary and it also marked the start on my way to being my true self of transgender.  So I actually consider myself as being transgender that full time just having a much harder time to admit it for a number of reasons  The first major reason was my family like always. The next was I wasn't sure how would effect my GF as I was coming out and being "the female" so to speak. And of course the least but still tiny thought friend area. So far the select friends know I'm transgender have fully embraced me told me I exude confidence and look wonderful.  Turned out that I had nothing to worry about with my GF either. She has been there since beginning and is supporting me in this part. That is truly amazing and has really helped alot especially on stressful days. So having my new identity is truely amazing and something else to embrace.🏳️‍⚧️