THE MIRROR MY FULL TRANSITION

     🏳️‍⚧️I did something similar to this entry a couple of years ago, with everything that has gone in mostly excellent I thought it was time to revisit. So yea this is going to look like another part another update on this long journey I have been on. Yes much of it has been wonderful but there have also been rough patches like any journey a person takes. So let's examine the different areas. 

 First off as everyone know way back when even before I initially came out I had feelings I felt I couldn't admit. Then when people kept asking me if I was gay it went to back of mind. I finally was able to come out and a weight was lifted. But there was something still not sitting perfect I noticed this at poker and when I went DT with partner. So I then came out as bi as it was a better "label" however that's all it was, was a label.

 Then I came out non binary abd people started to say your just using different labels so don't have to narrow down. I was especially told this when I came out non binary. That really stung but helped in a way. As I was wearing more feminine clothes and seeing myself in the mirror or a picture the more joy came over me. Not only joy but different thoughts that I think we're always with me but kept buried because of my family. 

 These feelings are the ones I began having more and more of and thought about and dreamed of when I would come home from an event with woman and guys in crowd. I didn't and don't feel like one of the guys even though I look like one inside I feel like I am a woman and when I look in the mirror I can see her and I can really see her in my pictures. Especially the ones where I'm dressed as the "girl" more so. 

 So with the pictures and the mirror even though they are very close I see myself as a transgender woman not non binary. And I must saying whenever I am called man and it's happened a few times in public by friends of course and a couple of strangers. It's always a mass feeling joy and euphoria. I couldn't be happier than I am now.🏳️‍⚧️ 

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  1. AnonymousMay 11, 2025 at 9:07 AM

    Great!! Happy for you and your are finally free to be you!!

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  2. AnonymousMay 12, 2025 at 3:00 PM

    I’m happy for you. 😊

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