WALKING SLOWLY INTO TRANSGENDER

  Transforming: Buried deep down all my life I had been waiting for my big chance. My chance to transform. It was difficult as I had many road blocks and there are still a few. However being out now as a transgender woman has helped me realize that even with the things blocking me I should have come out much sooner as I am feeling so great ever since I admitted it to myself and others. 

  Radiance: Ever since coming out as Transgender like fully "Transgender". Not non binary and Transgender combined people have been using a certain word to describe me. That is either Radiance or odd time Radiant. Refering to when they see me in pictures I have been taken in. I've been told that I've never looked so happy. In this area I owe so much to my wonderful partner Jennifer for all there help. Especially with outfits and when we are out. 

 Astounding: Coming out as Transgender has also made me feel astounding. It's like I'm living a whole new life, well I am except for when I am at home. When at home I think that's the time I feel the most dysphoria as I still hear my birthname. With my family refusing to use my chosen name it's very hard to hear at times. As it's not only the family but family friends. I am slowly getting people at the gym to use my new name however it's taking time.

 But other than being at home and certain people in gym my life has changed and for the better even if I hear new name or my female pronouns. 

 New: This one is a simple letter because even though it isn't really new getting everything out is new. This new version of me I know I have said this before but this is truly the real me. How do I know this is the real me over other's. Because of the way I feel and because of the excitement and anticipation I feel everytime I get to tell someone I am transgender. Yes I had that feeling other times but never to amazing euphoric degree. Plus with everything I have read and videos watched this has connected more and more.

 Self-confident Ever since I first came out to everyone years ago my confidence has really sky rocketed. But that was me after years of being afraid of even saying I was gay or bisexual. As people knew that wasn't exactly me but they also were very accepting. I had a ton of people ask me if I thought I might been Non Binary or transgender..at first I didn't think it. But it was more of a denial and I had known this when I looked back on my life 

 Where I felt like in lot relationships I was the "girl" but couldn't say it. Now that so many are accepting my confidence is making me say yes Davina this truly has been you all your life. Remember the times you tried you mom's bracelets, scarves on and even though very small things made you feel great. 

 Glamorous: I had always internally felt glamorous but could never admit or thought I couldn't because of my family. However now I can truly be glamorous wearing  clothes and doing certain mannerisms without caring. I can be the woman I also wanted to be in many situations now oh so cool for sure. Especially when I can do it in public.

 Euphoric: Every since coming out as Transgender I have had an a amazing euphoric feeling. It has been so blissful. When I started to feel like this I knew that this is truly who I was. Well I actually have know for a very long time but haven't been able to come out til now, well not just now it has been a while and I feel so free. 

Natural: For years and years I was living as somebody that I truly wasn't. Living as the wrong person even in the wrong body.  I had to be somebody I wasn't around everyone or I thought I did anyway. It appears the only people I need to be my birth sex and using name family and friends of family. That doesn't have the natural feel that my name's of Davina and Quinn are. Until everyone learns Davina I understand if course. 

 Delighlighted: Ever since coming out and even thinking about transgender it has been wonderful. So much had lifted from my mind. Been feeling so relaxed especially with my partner and friends accepting me as Transgender. It was a huge worry I must admit but with all the support im over the moon feeling great such delight joy running through me. 

 Enthusiastic: I in my life have been a joyful and enthusiastic person. However ever coming out as Transgender the enthusiasm is pouring out of me daily such a great feeling. I never thought it would be like this.  If you would have told me I would get this feeling even last year I would not have believed it. But there definitely is no denying it. My energy and how I feel is amazing. 

 Ravishing: This is one I'm surprised im using but it suits me best I find. In my albums people have seen my pics and said Quinn you like beaming and ravishing all you outfits look great. When I heard that it just melted my heart to be called ravishing I knew I was truly the woman I was ment to be. The woman I had buried all these years but in my own way actually came through. I'm so glad that I no longer go by my birth name and one of two others that lift me up. Also to be told ravishing just brightens my day.