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 🏳️‍⚧️  The other night I had a very intense spiritual message hit me. It was truly an amazing feeling for sure. Especially with all of the hiding I've had to do at home for the most part. Constantly hearing my birthname over and over is very disheartening so I pretend I'm either hearing my pronouns or my chosen name.  A few nights ago I got the most wonderful message it was actually a message about my true name Quinn. I had seen somebody I hadn't seen in well over a decade and he kept saying my birthname. I corrected him told him I no longer went by that name anymore. Eventually somebody pulled me aside said he's only here tonight just try and relax and let it slide. So eventually I did because I knew I wouldn't be seeing him again or at least not for very long time as he no longer lives in the area.  So what left me on cloud nine feeling the spiritual epiphany that I had?  It was a few nights ago while I was going to sleep. I had a feeling hit me an amazing e...

  This month on the 8th was my anniversary with my partner Jennifer. However it was a weekday so we delayed the celebration until the 10th. It actually worked out in a good way as we were not only able to celebrate our anniversary but we also did a recommitment ceremony. It was a really incredible day aside from the obvious of course I had a former teacher witness our ceremony.  He was my all time favorite teacher such a wonderful gentleman and one of the people who I had mentioned first helped me come out. Tom Gallagher my former drama teacher. One of the people who gave me so much advice. He was really happy when I recently told him I was indentifying as transgender non-binary. His response was I am so happy your finding yourself Quinn   Now the ceremony was a wonderful day with Jennifer meeting Tom and seeing both of them hit it off. I was expecting that but was so happy to see it. Both Jen and I loved the day especially when we exchanged new vows to each other fe...

  For such a very long I had the feeling my "egg" wasn't correct and it needed to be cracked. I put them in a normal way or suppressed them but also had feelings that I was more feminine than masculine on many occasions. I thought for a while it was just questioning myself as a gay man or bisexual man.   Then I landed in a very euphoric place and at first I came out under the trans umbrella. One thing that helped me was saying I'm not CIS I said this out loud and that really helped. Saying Non Binary Gender fluid. I actually was telling people how comfortable I felt.   So then when I started wearing feminine clothes even with my masculine look I was getting people call me she mam her.  I knew it for sure in two areas when I was called she by my partner and man and she at my poker game. I felt such an awesome release.  Those two times I went home smiled and had tears such happy tears. Tears of saying wow this truly is me and people appreciate me in my t...

  When I first came out back in 2019 starting my journey I never thought it would lead me to where I am but in some ways I think I always knew. I just needed to be shown and told and in some ways over the years I have been. What do I mean by this well everyone knows that when I first announced I had come out I came out as gay, then after conversations I had thought I was more bisexual.   I then took another step in my journey and came out as a non Binary individual. This seemed to actually fit me like a glove I was having incredible feelings run through me. That was until my more Euphoric and great feeling which I will describe.   Another way I felt amazing was when I would go out in Toronto or at karaoke and I would wear something feminine. After a while I started to feel non binary wasn't quite what was Identity so to speak. There was another reason for this and that was because I had always wanted to be in the female clothing in my highschool years. Plus this...

  Tonight I had a truly amazing and freeing time. The full Quinn was able to emerge both internally and shown externally as non binary transgender. I had the incredible feeling I had not shown and I also was able to dress up and tonight was beyond freeing.  Yes it's very true I have dressed feminine in the past but I haven't had the two parts click together until recently and especially until tonight. I was with my CIS GF tonight and being in the feminine clothing the feelings came flowing through. I have to say it was one of if not the best date I've had just because of everything that came out that was buried for so long.   Tonight I must admit I didn't think I was going to be as relaxed as I was. I have to say I can't remember when I have ever been so relaxed, I think it's because all of Quinn was 100% in the open. I have been in the open wearing my feminine side but there was something different about this something more freeing more blissful. The blissful f...

  This is something I have touched on in many of my entries but I'm really going to focus on it in this entry. As I said before I knew but didn't know I was non binary and transgender. However I thought no there is no possibility I could be transgender as I would never go through the surgery and I do all the things that guys do. I was into sports still am I'm a big gym rat and I found lot in common with male poker friends.   Now on the other side and in another way so often in my life internally I have felt feminine and thought I belonged female and didn't feel fully male. As I have mentioned in other entries I think that's why I was always intrigued and wondering what the female clothing would look like on me.  Then when I had a chance to try on some clothes I felt extremely free. Then when I went out it was an even more free feeling.   One big point was the combination of how I looked on the outside and how I felt feel on the inside. Especially when I hav...

 Several times I have walked down the street and seen so many ladies wearing amazing outfits that make me say wow. But this isn't a new revelation no not at all. As a matter of fact I've always had a big feminine part to myself and it was a part I always wanted to explore and release. The more I held it in the more I knew I was hurting people and it was an awful feeling.   Now let's explore when I actually first began to know like for real for real. Yes I had mentioned High school but I really knew with my first true girlfriend. So how did I know I wasn't like all my guy friends like a couple but I was like my girlfriend at the time in lot of ways. I especially remember wanting to just try her things on but was so afraid because of my family.   As I fully came out a number of years ago I no longer cared even though my family didn't support me. With my current girlfriend it was very easy to see who I was. So often I could see and feel my feminine side. And could ...