ANOTHER FOOTPRINT IN THE SAND

  When I first came out back in 2019 starting my journey I never thought it would lead me to where I am but in some ways I think I always knew. I just needed to be shown and told and in some ways over the years I have been. What do I mean by this well everyone knows that when I first announced I had come out I came out as gay, then after conversations I had thought I was more bisexual. 

 I then took another step in my journey and came out as a non Binary individual. This seemed to actually fit me like a glove I was having incredible feelings run through me. That was until my more Euphoric and great feeling which I will describe. 

 Another way I felt amazing was when I would go out in Toronto or at karaoke and I would wear something feminine. After a while I started to feel non binary wasn't quite what was Identity so to speak. There was another reason for this and that was because I had always wanted to be in the female clothing in my highschool years. Plus this isn't a key thing but I had always related better to female. 

 Even today when I'm dressed in jeans or more masculine I feel a very large feminine side come through. I used to try and push it down now that I let free it's the most amazing and I think even wonderful feeling in my life. 

 Another thing that has really helped me coming out now as "socially transgender". However even though I can only appear socially transgender like can't have surgery or anything I still feel I actually am in the category because of the way people tell me I present myself and my internal feelings.

 There are so many people I have to thank walking with me on this journey. First off of course my partner, another person I have to mention a former teacher Tom Gallagher who like my partner has been a huge encouraging person. Another person who I would like to mention is a poker player Eileen. Last but not least thank my friend Aubyn all of you were there and listened and still do listen and help along with so many others I thank you all.

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