MY EGG HATCHING

  For such a very long I had the feeling my "egg" wasn't correct and it needed to be cracked. I put them in a normal way or suppressed them but also had feelings that I was more feminine than masculine on many occasions. I thought for a while it was just questioning myself as a gay man or bisexual man. 

 Then I landed in a very euphoric place and at first I came out under the trans umbrella. One thing that helped me was saying I'm not CIS I said this out loud and that really helped. Saying Non Binary Gender fluid. I actually was telling people how comfortable I felt. 

 So then when I started wearing feminine clothes even with my masculine look I was getting people call me she mam her.  I knew it for sure in two areas when I was called she by my partner and man and she at my poker game. I felt such an awesome release.  Those two times I went home smiled and had tears such happy tears. Tears of saying wow this truly is me and people appreciate me in my true way 

 I felt more and more comfortable and confident to wear all my feminine clothes in public. And with this comfortable feeling I'm more and more comfortable wearing my feminine clothes with larger crowds or around friends I wasn't sure I would when my egg first was there. Now that my egg has fully cracked my identity is Quinn the transgender woman. And hearing she her keeps lifting me up. As much as I hear my new pronouns the better. 

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