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  In every other relationship I have been in, including other times my current GF and I were together they were either my GF or my partner/BF. We also had terms of endearment that we would like to use with each other. Things like shutterbug, butterfly for a couple of examples. Then yes with everyone dated typical ones like sweetie hun babe.  With this relationship because of my non binary Transgender identity I got the most awesome nickname/term of endearment ever.  Instead of BF or just hun sweetie I am referred to as a Joyfriend. Joyfriend it makes my heart leap and feel so awesome. Because it's such a gender neautral name that can be used with anyone. Going out and hearing this is my Joyfriend makes me smile and gives me a huge great feeling inside. Nicknames really can be amazing for sure. 

  I had heard a few people describe me as a slightly masculine non binary person, and I have also been told I am a non binary trans fem person. I am writing this entry to tie everything and give my perspective on the views. See what everybody's opinion of the subject is.   Over time when I came out slowly to everyone as non binary at first, then non binary Transgender person people who actually not surprised. So I've gone over and talked to friends asked them where they would place me spectrum wise. Male non binary Transgender. Then on other option non binary Transgender Fem.   For myself I'm leaning towards Nonbinary transgender 55/45 fem with feelings. Many people I have approached without me telling them my feelings and thoughts. The majority have said to me Quinn we definitely have seen a bit of larger fem side. They would also tell me they had seen it from day one of meeting me. It was definitely interesting to find this out. Thanks to everyone for your opi...

  I just recently started looking to see if Quinn was the name the was "fully me". Don't get me wrong I absolutely love Quinn and it's so fabulous and euphoric for sure. However I had been sort  of searching for something thar went with it or a new one. I have actually wound up doing that.  The name is Onyx and it will be looking like this  Onyx-Quinn Bezer. Because both names are in the name I will accept both Onyx or Quinn. Because of coming out to everyone as Quinn. I of course will also accept and really appreciate all of my pronouns. The pronouns of They/Them abd depending where I am and who I'm with her/she. So I have a trilogy that can be used Onyx Quinn my pronouns.

  For a very long time I have felt very large feminine feelings and even some feminine or more feminine traits as I had been told. And I'm really seeing more and more everyday, well not everyday my poker days or my days I'm out with friends. I am so joyful and relaxed I don't mind showing my feminine side. I think that's why I was able to admit say Quinn your life is getting better everyday especially when I dress also and feel comfrerable expressing on dates.  I'm really glad that my GF is a huge supporter of mine and the LGBTQ community. She really has helped me from phase one when I first came out up until today. It's great to have her support today along with everyone else's I get because saying stuff and being me is so much easier and natural. Even not always being "The Guy" when we go out.   As I said before just because I can't medically transition it dosent mean I can't socially transition. Discovering this has really put me in a wo...

This blog was inspired by DR Z PHD a gender therapist who i follow on youtube and Facebook. I'm in what you might call a slow non full transition  So what do I mean by this? Ok I know that I will never be able to have the surgery but for most of my life I've had a deep feminine feeling. Without myself even knowing it I have actually even been showing it over the years.   Once I was made aware that I was showing it, I have to say it was amazing. Such a feeling of euphoria especially when I can wear my feminine clothes.  These things are my blouses my dresses a few tops I have.Oh the bliss and joy I have been feeling. I actually have been looking into a different name I'll keep you updated.

 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️ I wrote an extremely similar blog way back in April of this year. However over the past month or bit more I'd say I had to revisit it. It wasn't an easy revisit especially after losing one of my support people but I have gained and still have everyone else supporting me and its incredible.   The entry I am talking about is using pronouns other than they/them or thier. Over the last month or bit more I've been feeling more and more in touch with my fem side. I know what everyone is thinking yes we all have the feelings of masculinity and feminine no matter what assinged sex we are. However lately it has been a little different for me. So I'll explain that part of everything now.  In the beginning of my coming out as non binary it was perfect I knew I could release what had been hidden for so long. Then I started seeing woman on dates or while I was out and wanting to be more like the lady in every way. Some of the areas were mannerisms, body style type, ...

 This entry ties into another I did, that was actually just two before this I've been feeling a ton of major dysphoria lately.   I've been feeling it in two aspects in particular. Socially and physically have been my biggest one's. Even if I wanted to fully transition I know I couldn't because of cost that would face me. Also my living situation and being at home with my mother and father.  About my dysphoria it actually really hit back in my early high school days. It was when I saw all the pretty girls what they were doing and thier outfits they would wear. I even liked the uniform because was a kilt, but Friday's and special days I really liked because they were non uniform days. So everyone could dress casual, when I saw those outfits I got a different feeling thinking I'd look fabulous in that I  should be in those outfits.   I repressed all the issues because of parents other family and certain friends. Now we'll over last few years they really s...