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  I was thinking after the pist I wrote yesterday and the conversation between my niece and parent's about the wedding. Well actually two things about the wedding one was a bit selfish so I scrapped it. Or I think it was a bit selfish so I will get into them.  As I mentioned last night it was upsetting that I was referred to as David and will most likely be invited to the wedding as David. Eventhough my niece said she would use preferred name and pronouns as well as her fiance.   One thing I was thinking of about the wedding and one of the least impactful or in my opinion anyway.   I had planned on giving a speech saying as Quinn I am very happy to.welcome Wade to our family. Yes it's true that Greg's family knows me as my former name but I am introducing myself in my as Quinn in my toast. That would cause nothing but major problems that I truly don't need    Another thing I was thinking about was what would be a cool would be to show up part...

  Feiday my niece was over with sister to visit with everyone and have a coffee. While she was over dad was asking about her fiance and how the job searching was going, both here and in B.C. She ssid both places have really good prospects and B C  will always have stuff for him.  Then my dad brought up the wedding and was asking about the numbers. My niece said probably no more than 50 each. My niece said for me a bunch of friends my wedding party and of course the family.   She pulled out her phone and went through everyone said Pappa you Nanna and of course uncle Dave. This was a bit kick as while ago my niece told me Wade and I will  use your preferred name and pronouns ftom now on. But I'm on thier list as uncle Dave not as my preferred name Quinn I was thinking WTF ugh. 

 Since I first "officially" came out in the middle of 2019 first as gay to my parents as I have mentioned. I think the main reasons were it was the easiest way to come out to parents. I was afraid of doing the entire bisexual thing that I had a suspicion of but not entirely sure. A few friends helped me realize back when I came out to everyone in 2019. Back then it was a huge weight off my shoulders and a great relief . In the begining I got so much support from friends and family it was incredible.   Then I came out as non binary/ bisexual and had felt really amazing. Because my whole life I hadn't felt fully the average "male" or AMAB. I always have had a feminine side, well more so than say the average guy might have. I started to study more into all of  the genders and sexual orientations that there are. As I went through everything it actually probably took me from the time I came out until now to find what I believe is the true Quinn. I know I've ssid ...

   What exactly do I mean by this title? Well ok it's pretty easy from my view. It's the total double standard of life that we all see once or twice the very common double standard. As I mentioned before my family was hugs and happy when I was finally able to come out after many years of being in the closet.  Then as I have mentioned I only am supposed to be out if I am at home or if somebody else is the one who mentions it. I'll give you a couple of examples one of my moms friends saw my pride ring and said oh thats nice. Told her I came out as bisexual and non binary she told me oh its great your living your life in true way.  Then my youngest niece after some confusion over a card said oh uncle of course I'll use your name and pronouns I have a non binary friend plus I know how hard being "catholic" plus our family it was for you to take this step.  Then we get into what is said or so I have been told. Like my family in Australia is so stunned they don'...

🏳️‍🌈  I have many pictures of myself in my Quinn album. As everyone has seen they are a mixture of massculine and my "new side" that being my feminine side and clothing pictures taken of Quinn.   Last night I went for a quick coffee my Friday coffee with my friend. It was the best coffee since I announced myself as Quinn. The funny thing is it had nothing to do with seeing my friend. So after coffee I need to take a bus home and needed washroom thought I better not chance the wait. So I went to the coffee shop restroom. Well wow just wow   So why was it a wow the line for the guys was huge and nobody was waiting for the lady washroom. I felt bit nervous buy mostly ok as I was and am identifying as Quinn my non binary self. Not my old self my dead name and dead sex so to speak AMAB and David. That is gone to me.   I had been wearing my pronoun pin on my jacket. My they/them pin. I went into the lady washroom. When I was finished I was asked if it was ...

 As I sit alone in my basement, listening to music and reading I know in the house I'm not truly alone. I'm only alone when I'm without my parents I know strange. Why is this a fact, because my parents are clouds huge clouds that do as much as they can to destroy this rainbow. This rainbow more and more everyday has found different ways to shine, however the certainly didn't do it alone.  I'll give out to a few people who really helped me and continue to. Aubyn Baker Tom Gallagher, Eileen Murray Jennifer Cannon, Kathryn Slagle,  Teresa Stallone. I of course have others and they of course helped. But these were ones who were really there the most whether it was online or in person when I came out It's nice having many friends who back me up as being in LGBTQ community and love ❤️ my chosen name the one that makes me feel so euphoric Quinn. . It's amazing how it has caught on.  Seeing all those rainbows in my life on hard days really brightens my day  Now bein...

  For my second entry I'm going to focus the majority of my entry on my family.  When I first came out to my family there was a bit of shock, that was understandable. When I came out I was expecting major pushback especially from my mom however they showed they were ok and even showed a bit of pride when I came out to them.  With the pride I was shown it was a weight off my shoulders. I thought this is great I am finally free. However I wasn't and still am not exactly what you would call free. Or not as free as I should be.  Sure it's all fine if I want to be out as long as I am at home. Oh and ever more eggshells I can only be the real me if I am alone in my room or tv room. Like that's the only time I can talk to friends using my chosen name of Quinn. It's a frustrating situation that I can't show my happiness pride at home.   All I want is to 24/7 be the person I feel I truly am. Yes my parents said I was David AMAB. But I haven't felt that for years I j...