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   This entry is for somebody who not only I have dated but is now one of my best friend's. I'm talking about Jennifer yes like all friends we have had fights and issues over time, especially when I came out initially. However she saw like the majority of my friend's and people I know it's who I truly am. Of course I don't think my family ever is going to accept Quinn or even if went back to just gay.  As everyone knows I came out gay but that wasn't me and it really didn't take long to understand that I was at least bisexual however as I've said I knew there was another layer to me I just didn't have the term. Didn't have the proper wording I  needed, until I started reading about different things. The two that clicked together were bisexual and non binary.  The bisexual made total 100% sense as I've been attracted to both sexes and feelings have been great on both sides. Not just the oh ya he's cute you should ask him out to a girl. But...

  Around this time of year we are all thinking about gifts and what to get everyone. Well I'm thinking about a gift I was given 49 years ago that gift was my given name David. Given names are not totally stone but a gift and not obligations. Especially when you are an adult. My family sees my given name as the most wonderful and greatest gift. I see it in another way.  It is your choice what you want to be called and what makes you feel comfortable. I feel so much more comfortable as Quinn than I did as David. When I hear the name Quinn it's like a gift everytime I hear it. It's the gift I gave to myself that makes me feel like sunshine. Quinn eventhough it has been a very short amount of time has dome one thing. It has taken alot of stress away from the pandemic. If by some miracle I get even one family member to call me Quinn it will be a great gift.

  This is a very special Christmas for me and the son of one of my epilepsy friends in the states. The son and I will be spending this Christmas in what we both have said to family "our true selves". My friend's son started his life as Ava and last year went through transition into who he feels he really is. That is Nathan from everything I've hears he feels so much more free. I have that exact feeling with Quinn.   With my coming out bisexual and most recently non binary I have discovered a Christmas gift to myself. My Christmas gift is becoming who I feel so comfortable with and very relaxed with. My Christmas gift is now being referred to as Quinn.   I have felt the world off my shoulders since I have been going by Quinn. Yes still having a few seizures but some of that has to do with the time of year, Christmas is always a big trigger for me.  Another great gift is almost  everyone at all my poker games are now using Quinn. Not David or just Bezer....

  Tonight a friend I hadn't seen in years came into the bar while I was playing poker. I used to be in the kinsmen club with him when I was younger in my early 20's. I heard David didn't recognize voice plus I normally wouldn't respond to David as except family and legal I am known as Quinn to all. My friend came over and said hey its Jim David I thought that was you. I went to explain my new name when my friend jumped in.  My friend asked when was last time you saw he looked at me I said it ok. So Orrest said David. Jim said 6 years ago or so. Orrest said oh you better chat with him.  So I told Jim the whole story of me coming our and also coming out non binary. Jim said oh ok I understand so you now go by Quinn I love that name. It was great seeing an d friend and having him understand right away. I said thanks for understanding ad many don't. He looked at me and said you remember Mike my son? I said yes last year he came out as bisexual non binary so I totally un...

  🏳️‍🌈 This entry is actually going to sound very familiar and be very close to another entry. I'm actually going to start off with discussing about the Transgender side so to speak. I thought I would start with this as many people have thought I had thoughts or if I thought I might be Trans and not just Gay or Bi. It was never actually something I had thought about until I remembered how in was horribly teased about  what a little girl I was or "am".   It was and always has both been a soar spot. But one that has had me really look into myself internally. As I mentioned in my other entry I wouldn't become a woman buy sometimes internally I do feel free that way. So that was the part of me that associated with Transgender.  Now my Bisexual side that one is a more obvious one and people had always seen it. They had actually even seen it before I did. I was more blindsided than everyone else was. Even when people would ask me if I was gay or mostly say bisexual ...

 🏳️‍🌈 So this title is very interesting in a few different ways for sure. First off as people who have been following all three my journeys my life battles and struggles with both epilepsy and CHD. Then my recent journey that I must say wasn't as recent as I would actually say. It was just a hidden journey until recently.                                           For everybody who knows me they until very recently have known me as David or Bezer as it was a poker nickname becsuse of 4 David's at one point. I had/have what you would refer to as the most unique last name and that is how that started. Wasn't a disrespect thing and I never saw it as one more of a nickname to separate.   Now that I have been slowly moving forward in my journey after fully coming out, and discovering or rather shall we say admitting things I was both forced to bury over the year's. Th...

  Today I went for normal Monday workout, they are getting better by the way. Plus more and more people are showing up looking like the gym again. So that is an excellent thing for sure.   I met two people who identify as both he/,him they/them and are a couple. One of them asked me if I was gay or bisexual. I told them actually I identify as bisexual and non binary. One asked me during the workout how I first started to "identify " as non binary. So we had a discussion.  I told them I was pretty sure I had known something for many many years but didn't know what to call it exactly. They were were wondering what I meant so I explained as best as I could while working out with them. One said that was exactly their feeling until they started dating heavy. I asked what they meant about heavy? The description was like real real serious GFS and many I always dreamed, like not at night but would look at GFs and think I would feel comfortable I wonder how I would look. I sa...