FOR A PERSON WHO HAS STOOD BY ME

   This entry is for somebody who not only I have dated but is now one of my best friend's. I'm talking about Jennifer yes like all friends we have had fights and issues over time, especially when I came out initially. However she saw like the majority of my friend's and people I know it's who I truly am. Of course I don't think my family ever is going to accept Quinn or even if went back to just gay.

 As everyone knows I came out gay but that wasn't me and it really didn't take long to understand that I was at least bisexual however as I've said I knew there was another layer to me I just didn't have the term. Didn't have the proper wording I  needed, until I started reading about different things. The two that clicked together were bisexual and non binary.

 The bisexual made total 100% sense as I've been attracted to both sexes and feelings have been great on both sides. Not just the oh ya he's cute you should ask him out to a girl. But ya he's nice cute I'd go for him. Then in reverse.

 Recently I've found the full word term non binary to add. I've always had ideas of having both sides in me well we all do but I felt it deeper and really felt it when I dated one of my girlfriends thinking I'd feel comfortable in that. I know now I do feel comfortable in gender neutral masculine and some fem clothing. This is how I've realized Quinn suits me more than my old identity eventhough I had it 47 48 years. Or did I as I always felt different but locked Quinn away because of mom and dad.

 My Ex GF now one of best friends has been talking to me about Quinn. Different ways They can come out. I said They on purpose as I am using Quinn or They/,Them I truly believe I was only AMAB because that's what my parents wanted and in the 70s that's how it was. I can't wait to truly reveal Quinn thanks you Jennifer for the help and talks. 

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