FROM ONE END RAINBOW TO OTHER. HOW MY OUTSIDE IS IN SYNC WITH INSIDE.

  After watching so many videos and reading so much plus everything on TV these days I've gotten a newer aspect. As everyone knows I first came out as gay and I thought that was going to make me happy and where I belonged. Then I came out as bisexual that gave me a bit of more who I was at the time. Well I thought it would for sure. Then I came out as non binary cganged my name to Quinn. And that was truly a great feeling of euphoria such a cloud nine.

 Recently I had been watching videos about Transgender people and I saw that there was so much more to it. It wasn't just going from male to female or vice-versa on the outside. You could transition on the outside but keep the masculinity or femininity you had beforehand. This absolutely blew my mind in some ways and in others it made sense like ok I always thought of transgender just switching sexes becoming male or female not thinking non binary is also transition just a different way.

 So I have dated girls as has been mentioned and often have said David as I have only dated people when I had my birthname. So when I was dating  often I felt I needed to be on the otherside like me being the girl. I had and still have so many of the typical girl emotions and I was jealous of most of my girlfriends and the builds they had and clothes they could wear.

 I knew I couldn't ever physically transition or become a girl. I don't feel I am fully the girl that's why it has dawned on me that I'm no n binary Transgender and not just Transgender. Many have said using my new name you really do fall in the middle Quinn.

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