NAILED DOWN AGE

 🏳️‍🌈 This is a scrap blog/redo and it will become clear as I go along. A long while ago I wrote about nailing down my age of "knowing when I was gay bisexual". I thought it had been in my 20s from everything that I remembered, after a conversation with somebody I hadn't heard from in quite a while it was much before that. It was actually during my time I'm high-school. It actually did make sense to me as we were talking.

 I remember really having crushes on lots of the girls in high school and even wanting to date them. Not only did I want to date but I became very good friends with lots of them and all the guys took note. I was never teased as a matter of fact I was always still welcome with everything they did. 

 One thing my friend and I talked about and that was why so many saw me as either gay or bi in high school was at gym time sometimes outside I'd get flushed. They could  see my feelings and as my friend had said how I was hiding but I didn't know it.

 Then I told him I had also come out as a non binary and he said he totally understood and could see that for sure. He was saying you definitely have an ally in me throughout all of this, keep fighting Quinn I love your new name. Maybe one day your family will wake up. 

 Just as we wrapped up he asked do you remember any other times your heart skipped a beat with both a guy and girl. I said probably just before high school but I was really afraid of the feelings. Then I explained my family and he said I get it you felt trapped. Well Quinn keep fighting.🌈

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