KNOWING AGE

  This entry actually comes from a conversation thread that many people applied to and started taking about. Somebody had started the thread by asking what age did you know you were NB. the ages were a range from 13 to 56. I thought I was extremely late coming out non binary at 48 but then I think I knew well before I was actually non binary.

 I had a really good idea around my 25th year, this was after I had been thinking about my sexuality through high school and after my first go around of college. That was when I went to George brown. After George brown I was convinced that I had everything straightened out. Or at least for the most part. 

 I was sure for a while everything was "fine" according to my family. I needed to keep them and even myself in the dark. It had been a stressful time for sure.

 I went through so many different things as I've written about with LGBTQ and it has been revealing for sure. Here is a small picture of it. 

 As everyone knows I came out gay then bisexual I examined so much and even talked to friends more than I thought I would.  I had always been very very fem as much as I tried to hide it. I loved it in so many ways loved wearing ex's bracelets 

Had one who would do my nails and clean them before I left, she never did heavy coating so was easy to get off. I felt like the person I was truly meant to be 

 So many when I came out actually assumed when ssid wasn't "gay" they mentioned both bi and non binary. It was and has been deep struggles study ftom my other entries as most know 

 I have to admit being able to talk fem and show my fem side has helped my seizure count. Truly I am me.

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  1. UnknownAugust 5, 2021 at 10:43 PM

    For those of us who didn't have the vocabulary, the concepts or the tools to explore this when we were younger, it's been a long, bumpy road to get to where we are now. I'm really glad that I no longer feel like I have to "stay in my lane" and present as masculine. I can do my nails and show them in public. I can wear makeup in public and all the pretty colours of clothes I never allowed myself to indulge in before. It's so freeing! Better late than never, huh?

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