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  Last night I was in pure bliss. I finally found a Bra that fit me right and for the time I had it on it was like no other feeling I had. Or at least nothing for a very long time. It was such a relaxing evening that put my body at ease. Something else that put my body at ease was I actually did look ok in it. When I saw this I turned red blushing I knew I was looking at another part of the true me.  Even if so many others don't believe it or acknowledge it I see the true me and I couldn't be any happier. Well I guess I could if everyone accepted me as I am and not as my birthname. Especially when I tell people constantly how much happiness I feel living as I am now. Well at least I know some are there for me and they are all very important in different ways.  It's great having that family support me and my journey I'm on. 

   Hi (Quinn) for now writing a new entry. I say for now as I have found a name that makes me feel so euphoric it's beyond amazing. There may be a new name in my future. We will have to wait and see for sure   So why the name change im feeling like the perfect amazing lady. This has been all from videos and spending time with my partner. The last the true lady has come to the surface and it's never been such a more amazing feeling. It's a freedom I've been waiting for all my life and it's finally here. I find I am able to show my feminine side in more and more places and show it to more people. That has released me and my true person my inner buried girl. Thanks to videos and my partner. 

  The title of this is a very interesting one. It's about a ladder.  When I first came out it was at a poker game and came out as gay. I remember telling my parents and they were fine with it. Not long after I had a conversation and somebody at poker agreed I was bisexual. The reason this conclusion was come to was the attraction I had of both sexes and not just a male sex.   Then something really big happened at home for fun it tried on one of mom's kerchiefs. It made me feel really fantastic and I started to see myself as a non Binary trans. After this there was an explosive thing I never expected but actually did expect from the very beginning.   A few people had asked me if I was transgender. This was something that absolutely stunned me for sure. I thought me no there is no way.  Then when I both started watching videos and trying on more of mom's stuff also some stuff while shopping and at my girlfriends. Then I started getting my Own style....

   Saturday I had something incredible happen all because of my girlfriend. Because of me coming out as transgender my girlfriend Jennifer wrote me a wonderful goodnight note. Not only did she tell me how proud of me she was that was the first part of my euphoric feeling.  Then I saw something that made me tingle what was this   Jennifer used a female pronoun, and not just any female pronoun but used princess. It was such a wave of emotion through the body. One like I hadn't felt in ages it was years ago when a girlfriend called me her queen as a joke and I felt the same feeling. However this time it was much more intense. Much more yes it's me   A good example she also said I had bloomed. I find this as another way of my I saw my awesome new true self. The self that has been inside and shown herself on some occasions and has felt great. 

 🏳️‍⚧️  The other night I had a very intense spiritual message hit me. It was truly an amazing feeling for sure. Especially with all of the hiding I've had to do at home for the most part. Constantly hearing my birthname over and over is very disheartening so I pretend I'm either hearing my pronouns or my chosen name.  A few nights ago I got the most wonderful message it was actually a message about my true name Quinn. I had seen somebody I hadn't seen in well over a decade and he kept saying my birthname. I corrected him told him I no longer went by that name anymore. Eventually somebody pulled me aside said he's only here tonight just try and relax and let it slide. So eventually I did because I knew I wouldn't be seeing him again or at least not for very long time as he no longer lives in the area.  So what left me on cloud nine feeling the spiritual epiphany that I had?  It was a few nights ago while I was going to sleep. I had a feeling hit me an amazing e...

  This month on the 8th was my anniversary with my partner Jennifer. However it was a weekday so we delayed the celebration until the 10th. It actually worked out in a good way as we were not only able to celebrate our anniversary but we also did a recommitment ceremony. It was a really incredible day aside from the obvious of course I had a former teacher witness our ceremony.  He was my all time favorite teacher such a wonderful gentleman and one of the people who I had mentioned first helped me come out. Tom Gallagher my former drama teacher. One of the people who gave me so much advice. He was really happy when I recently told him I was indentifying as transgender non-binary. His response was I am so happy your finding yourself Quinn   Now the ceremony was a wonderful day with Jennifer meeting Tom and seeing both of them hit it off. I was expecting that but was so happy to see it. Both Jen and I loved the day especially when we exchanged new vows to each other fe...

  For such a very long I had the feeling my "egg" wasn't correct and it needed to be cracked. I put them in a normal way or suppressed them but also had feelings that I was more feminine than masculine on many occasions. I thought for a while it was just questioning myself as a gay man or bisexual man.   Then I landed in a very euphoric place and at first I came out under the trans umbrella. One thing that helped me was saying I'm not CIS I said this out loud and that really helped. Saying Non Binary Gender fluid. I actually was telling people how comfortable I felt.   So then when I started wearing feminine clothes even with my masculine look I was getting people call me she mam her.  I knew it for sure in two areas when I was called she by my partner and man and she at my poker game. I felt such an awesome release.  Those two times I went home smiled and had tears such happy tears. Tears of saying wow this truly is me and people appreciate me in my t...