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  Last Saturday was an anniversary, however not a good anniversary. It now has been 10 years since our family friend Huey Quinn passed away. It sure dosent seem that way. I was telling a couple of people about it and both talked to me but they talked to me using my pronouns.  The first person said to me I think they chose the name Quinn to help you remember him. Also to keep some of his spirit in your soul. I can tell that you are being a good person especially when using this name. Also when you think about yourself I know you think of cinema and comics, I sort of see Harley Quinn in you. Also she tied back to our family friend who passed and said from what they have been saying it sounds like they had a good soul like yours.  The other person  said to me a bit of the same thing. Like it looks like they had a really goid friend and subconsciously you wanted to remember them. I said that was probably part of it as I had mentioned before. Also I have a what I would co...

  Last Thursday til Sunday we had had beat retreat, heart csmp in person for first time since covid. It was great everyone knew I was now Quinn and they all called me Quinn. Of course there were a few slips but they corrected themselves and then immediately apologized. So I told one of the volunteers I was going by Quinn and am non binary.  After I told her she asked me if I changed it legally. I had said no it will be hard with ODSP and things going on at home. She said look until you legally change it I won't be calling you anything but David because that's your name not Quinn.  Quinn is not valid until it's your legal name.   Then there was a  conversation where she was discussing with others LGBTQ and other things. She said I don't care if your boy girl black chinesse white as long as your respectful we can get along. Even said knew a trans person. But because I couldn't change name legally I couldn't get same respect. 

  I was thinking after the pist I wrote yesterday and the conversation between my niece and parent's about the wedding. Well actually two things about the wedding one was a bit selfish so I scrapped it. Or I think it was a bit selfish so I will get into them.  As I mentioned last night it was upsetting that I was referred to as David and will most likely be invited to the wedding as David. Eventhough my niece said she would use preferred name and pronouns as well as her fiance.   One thing I was thinking of about the wedding and one of the least impactful or in my opinion anyway.   I had planned on giving a speech saying as Quinn I am very happy to.welcome Wade to our family. Yes it's true that Greg's family knows me as my former name but I am introducing myself in my as Quinn in my toast. That would cause nothing but major problems that I truly don't need    Another thing I was thinking about was what would be a cool would be to show up part...

  Feiday my niece was over with sister to visit with everyone and have a coffee. While she was over dad was asking about her fiance and how the job searching was going, both here and in B.C. She ssid both places have really good prospects and B C  will always have stuff for him.  Then my dad brought up the wedding and was asking about the numbers. My niece said probably no more than 50 each. My niece said for me a bunch of friends my wedding party and of course the family.   She pulled out her phone and went through everyone said Pappa you Nanna and of course uncle Dave. This was a bit kick as while ago my niece told me Wade and I will  use your preferred name and pronouns ftom now on. But I'm on thier list as uncle Dave not as my preferred name Quinn I was thinking WTF ugh. 

 Since I first "officially" came out in the middle of 2019 first as gay to my parents as I have mentioned. I think the main reasons were it was the easiest way to come out to parents. I was afraid of doing the entire bisexual thing that I had a suspicion of but not entirely sure. A few friends helped me realize back when I came out to everyone in 2019. Back then it was a huge weight off my shoulders and a great relief . In the begining I got so much support from friends and family it was incredible.   Then I came out as non binary/ bisexual and had felt really amazing. Because my whole life I hadn't felt fully the average "male" or AMAB. I always have had a feminine side, well more so than say the average guy might have. I started to study more into all of  the genders and sexual orientations that there are. As I went through everything it actually probably took me from the time I came out until now to find what I believe is the true Quinn. I know I've ssid ...

   What exactly do I mean by this title? Well ok it's pretty easy from my view. It's the total double standard of life that we all see once or twice the very common double standard. As I mentioned before my family was hugs and happy when I was finally able to come out after many years of being in the closet.  Then as I have mentioned I only am supposed to be out if I am at home or if somebody else is the one who mentions it. I'll give you a couple of examples one of my moms friends saw my pride ring and said oh thats nice. Told her I came out as bisexual and non binary she told me oh its great your living your life in true way.  Then my youngest niece after some confusion over a card said oh uncle of course I'll use your name and pronouns I have a non binary friend plus I know how hard being "catholic" plus our family it was for you to take this step.  Then we get into what is said or so I have been told. Like my family in Australia is so stunned they don'...

🏳️‍🌈  I have many pictures of myself in my Quinn album. As everyone has seen they are a mixture of massculine and my "new side" that being my feminine side and clothing pictures taken of Quinn.   Last night I went for a quick coffee my Friday coffee with my friend. It was the best coffee since I announced myself as Quinn. The funny thing is it had nothing to do with seeing my friend. So after coffee I need to take a bus home and needed washroom thought I better not chance the wait. So I went to the coffee shop restroom. Well wow just wow   So why was it a wow the line for the guys was huge and nobody was waiting for the lady washroom. I felt bit nervous buy mostly ok as I was and am identifying as Quinn my non binary self. Not my old self my dead name and dead sex so to speak AMAB and David. That is gone to me.   I had been wearing my pronoun pin on my jacket. My they/them pin. I went into the lady washroom. When I was finished I was asked if it was ...