A COUNTRY SONG TO COME OUT TO

  "Man I Feel Like A Woman" To borrow a line from Canadian country singer Shania Twain this is me and in many ways always knew that it was. From back in high-school being jealous of the clothes up until last 20 years. That's when I started play poker on a regular basis. There were a few girls who played at one game and more at another. At the one game on a Tuesday I always thought I was jealous of one guy but it was the girl I was jealous of. Not because of the guy but I so often said that's the body I belong in or at least the clothes 

 Then my Thursday and Sunday game I got the same vibe this was more the clothing however on those days. Each time I would imagine what I would loom like. Then of course there is ny biggest supporter my amazing girlfriend. She had some stunning outfits and I knew somehow  that I could pull them off even as a costume.

 So I started to come out as non binary and trying on different female clothes. Wow what a feeling of absolutely blissfullness both outside and internally. The more I did this the more outfits I got or my girlfriends I tried I knew more more this is me but was still saying non binary. That is until the other day when I admitted and more so accepted ok Quinn you can't have surgery but it dosent make you any less transgender. As I said something I really have known 

 This was really made clear by a few videos as well one by Lyn Saga a number thier points hit home and two by Dr Z she is amazing at finding the finer points. And not just guessing at them. I also find I related to another youtuber Ashley Maddison. Who had an incredible journey herself and actually her videos were part my inspiration for writing this entry. 

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  1. AnonymousNovember 17, 2023 at 10:17 AM

    Quinn, I am so proud of you I love watching you flourish. I will always walk by your side holding your hand throughout your journey, we will travel together always. I love you Hun.❤️❤️ - Jennifer

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  2. AnonymousNovember 17, 2023 at 6:43 PM

    Very happy for you Quinn
    You be you always no matter what…💕👍

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