SPLIT TRAITS

  Tonight I was approached with a similar question from another friend. I was asked about my recent picture in my Quinn album where I have a skirt on showing my more feminine side of Quinn. I was asked if I was or thinking of transitioning fully female? As I have mentioned no I wouldn't transition not now however I think I mentioned there was a time that I would have. 

 I had always felt a large feminine side to myself and I always wondered what I would have looked like in girlfriends clothing and my friends who are ladies. Where did I first start this feeling? It was actually split between the end of high-school and one trip I took to Nova Scotia with family. One day I was in jeans a t shirt and a button shirt. That day I really felt half half massculine and feminine in my wear. After this things kinda of both snowballed and stalled, I'll explain that.

 I started thinking look how amazing she look and I know I could look the same. Then in high-school because of catholic high-school it kinda froze. Plus having the deep catholic family froze it. 

 In my mind I always pictured myself in both feminine and masculine clothing it really did help but took me so long to realize that I could truly be who I wanted to be. 

 The feminine side of me has always relaxed me. Eventhough I can't wear anything feminine at home because of my family I can talk to friends either masculine or feminine and it is very liberating freeing. 

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