Newlytravels

 🏳️‍⚧️ Yesterday marked the third anniversary of me coming out as non binary and it also marked the start on my way to being my true self of transgender.  So I actually consider myself as being transgender that full time just having a much harder time to admit it for a number of reasons  The first major reason was my family like always. The next was I wasn't sure how would effect my GF as I was coming out and being "the female" so to speak. And of course the least but still tiny thought friend area. So far the select friends know I'm transgender have fully embraced me told me I exude confidence and look wonderful.  Turned out that I had nothing to worry about with my GF either. She has been there since beginning and is supporting me in this part. That is truly amazing and has really helped alot especially on stressful days. So having my new identity is truely amazing and something else to embrace.🏳️‍⚧️

  🏳️‍⚧️ This entry is going to tie into others I have written in the past. It will show my new feminine side and me becoming the GF in the relationship. That is something I felt in other relationships but I pushed down. Another way I pushed it down and still do unless I'm out the way I dress and name people use on me. That is huge euphoria when "my chosen name" is heard.   Now onto me being the GF, so often in the past I had wondered what it would feel like and in a couple of relationships I could see it. That really helped me for sure and the warm feeling I have now is a feeling of over the moon. My current partner has been awesome and I see and feel who truly was in me. I see it especially when I get dressed up in my outfits and especially when I'm in public and others are accepting me for myself. It's truly awesome saying I'm the GF or hearing this is my or your my GF from my partner.🏳️‍⚧️

   Woke up to absolute horror and Schock this morning. My family knows I have come out as gay but everyone else knows me as Quinn.Well except my partner Jennifer who now knows me by my newer name of Davina a more euphoric and uplifting name.    So what was the Schock last night while at my wonderful partners I took some pictures in my new outfits. What I didn't realize was my sister wasn't blocked from that album and I may be getting outed as transgender to mom. This will destroy me as they barely accept me as gay. But I'm feeling so amazing with my feminine feelings and when I can act feminine and dress feminine. As I've said I've known so long she was in there but had to keep buried. Well it all might come now that sister saw my latest pictures. Hoping that I'm not outed as I said barely accept Gay or Bi 

  Last night I was in pure bliss. I finally found a Bra that fit me right and for the time I had it on it was like no other feeling I had. Or at least nothing for a very long time. It was such a relaxing evening that put my body at ease. Something else that put my body at ease was I actually did look ok in it. When I saw this I turned red blushing I knew I was looking at another part of the true me.  Even if so many others don't believe it or acknowledge it I see the true me and I couldn't be any happier. Well I guess I could if everyone accepted me as I am and not as my birthname. Especially when I tell people constantly how much happiness I feel living as I am now. Well at least I know some are there for me and they are all very important in different ways.  It's great having that family support me and my journey I'm on. 

   Hi (Quinn) for now writing a new entry. I say for now as I have found a name that makes me feel so euphoric it's beyond amazing. There may be a new name in my future. We will have to wait and see for sure   So why the name change im feeling like the perfect amazing lady. This has been all from videos and spending time with my partner. The last the true lady has come to the surface and it's never been such a more amazing feeling. It's a freedom I've been waiting for all my life and it's finally here. I find I am able to show my feminine side in more and more places and show it to more people. That has released me and my true person my inner buried girl. Thanks to videos and my partner. 

  The title of this is a very interesting one. It's about a ladder.  When I first came out it was at a poker game and came out as gay. I remember telling my parents and they were fine with it. Not long after I had a conversation and somebody at poker agreed I was bisexual. The reason this conclusion was come to was the attraction I had of both sexes and not just a male sex.   Then something really big happened at home for fun it tried on one of mom's kerchiefs. It made me feel really fantastic and I started to see myself as a non Binary trans. After this there was an explosive thing I never expected but actually did expect from the very beginning.   A few people had asked me if I was transgender. This was something that absolutely stunned me for sure. I thought me no there is no way.  Then when I both started watching videos and trying on more of mom's stuff also some stuff while shopping and at my girlfriends. Then I started getting my Own style....

   Saturday I had something incredible happen all because of my girlfriend. Because of me coming out as transgender my girlfriend Jennifer wrote me a wonderful goodnight note. Not only did she tell me how proud of me she was that was the first part of my euphoric feeling.  Then I saw something that made me tingle what was this   Jennifer used a female pronoun, and not just any female pronoun but used princess. It was such a wave of emotion through the body. One like I hadn't felt in ages it was years ago when a girlfriend called me her queen as a joke and I felt the same feeling. However this time it was much more intense. Much more yes it's me   A good example she also said I had bloomed. I find this as another way of my I saw my awesome new true self. The self that has been inside and shown herself on some occasions and has felt great.